Worn out...

Where to start. I guess it could be with my sleeping issues. I'm not 100% certain but to the best of my ability to track it, I would say I'm getting between 3 and 5 hours every night. Even when I do sleep, I don't get more than maybe an hour before I wake up.
This has been going on for a LONG time and I've tried different things to remedy the insomnia. I've been on Rozerem, Ambien, benadry, taken Hydrocodone and other medications from time to time that have side effects that cause drowsiness. Sometimes they work, sometimes they don't. Two nights ago, I didn't actually fall asleep until around 11:30 and was back up by 1. I don't think I went back to sleep at all and just tossed and turned. I'm not sure what else to do to actually get some sleep!!! UGH!!

The next thing is I'm feeling like a single married person. The only thing that I don't do on a regular basis around the house is feeding the dogs and letting them in and out. Everything else is my responsibility lately and that in and of itself is very draining. I am even responsible for making Scott's to do list and then reminding him to look at it and then doing anything that he hasn't done. I feel like pulling my hair out.

Add to that the fact that the kids have started to school and we're doing a lot of extra projects, homework and preparation for the next day...I have started working extra hours at work since the other afternoon girl is now getting out of school later.

I am starting back to school this month and even though it's only 1 night of class and 1 night of study group every week, that's going to take a ton of my time, too. I am very fortunate that I can pursue my education but on the other hand, I'm not sure I'm ready to bite off so much with so much going on in my life already!

Then there's Scott's work DRAMA! It's always something. I have made sacrifice after sacrifice for the past 11 years so that Scott can pursue his career. He loves police work but the hours, stress and constant uncertainty and schedule constraints are really wearing on me. Oh, Did I forget to mention that he's going to school full time, too??? Oh, yeah, I forgot to mention that. LOL!

Anyway, we found out that his days off are changing yet again and instead of being off on Monday evenings as originally planned for my school schedule, he will be off on other days now. We're still not sure what days those will be but it will change on Septemeber 1st.
I know things happen for a reason and everything will work out but it's hard to keep that in perspective when life seems to be exploding around me.

Whew...that felt good. Maybe just writing that all out on "paper" will help me make a better "Game Plan".
If you got this far...THANKS!